tilting, panning

for me

life is just like camera movement,

somehow i felt like i'm tilting these days

raising up, falling down, raising up, falling down

but no matter what,

i stayed on the same place over and over again

before i was just panning

following things that moved. but still,

i stayed on the same place over and over again

please God, let me move,

or should i said, move me?

impressive, they said

but that just some condolences they had for my arrogant choices

i'm aware and afraid of that

but could never change, even if i wanted to

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losing myself

before i was a wolf, hiding behind skin of rabbit

now i'm only some sheep, carved beside wolves nest

doing nothing beside watching

can't be done something beside watched

i'm imaginable, but i won't imagine too far

not like before, though

but i don't think that's the reason of everything that begans to differ

autistneverdie

this far?

as simple as thinking everything out of my mind
but not as doing everything i talk about

i don't care of everything
but i am sure that i'm care about something

something that we don't even know about

everything was nothing
now everything could be something

but i will still be zero point zero zero zero three

just that for my life this far

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wishlist

i think everybody should have a kind of wishlist

err i do think that dreams are important but you kind of only remember some slight of it

but really, wrote something somewhere so we would remember it

right now, what i really wish:

1. 2,75

2. canon 500d or nikon d5000

3. my old w830i *i really need u back*

4. lasagna

well, it happened that i don't have that many things i wish :p

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one new beginning

it's time to start everything

with someone else

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kembali

masih juga belom tau

masih juga belom berubah

dalam keadaan yang sama

situasi yang ga berbeda

terus inginkan waktu kembali

kembali ke masa-masa dimana semuanya indah

memperbaiki semua kesalahan yang terjadi

anak kecil, sahutku

kau hanya menginginkan suatu hal yang sempurna

ketahuilah tak ada yang sempurna di dunia ini

harapanmu yang tak tergapai,

diberikan sebaliknya

frustasi, kesedihan

mood yang buruk secara tiba tiba karena kembali ke masa lalu

hanya untuk mengulang kesalahan dan mengalami hal yang sama

autistneverdie

what i want?

just

want

to

see

her

smile

as

natural

as

before

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