your thanks

"and it's really nothing, just a 'thank you' from me"

so it's not really a gift for me?

-laughing- no matter what the reason is, now i feel thankful for it

it's still, no matter what, the most promising gift i'd ever have,

"thanks"

for the memorable december 7th and 8th i fight for

autistneverdie

when i look back

when we stop from our usual routine
we just tend to think about things we don't think about in usual terms

this time, i look back onto my past,
part of my memories from my nineteen plus five days years of living

year by year, in the same day every years

december 8th

it's been 19 time i've experiencing those days,
some alone
some with family
few together with friend
fewer together with girlfriend
and once in a lifetime with all my big family in a day where people having holiday together
and for me, this one is the best and the worst
still, all of them are memorable

wondering how many december 8th i'll get past later
because when i look back, every december 8th just get to be different, somehow...

"thanks to everyone for every memorable december 8th i've experienced. life couldn't be better without you guys in it"
"and the last december 8th was just, so meaningful to me. i've never experienced excitement of giving and accepting since many years ago. thanks"

autistneverdie

being december, being infinite

"dinoy alamsyah"

people just keep asking and asking, where does the "dinoy" term comes from?
here we go

it's 1989, near december 8th. mother already had the feeling onto giving birth to me. but since i'm the third child, and there's already my elder sister and brother -means my mom already gave names to her children, boy and girl, and my father just gave his last name, alamsjah to all of his children-, she just confused what name to give to me.

here comes the hero - my elder sister -, she wants to give a name, and then my mother gave the rights of naming me to her.

days before 8th, she already have the name, and slip it under the glass on the table in the family room. it's "dinoy" if a boy is born, and another different strange name if it's a girl(she actually forgot about the girl's name, haha)

why dinoy?

One
it comes from some indonesian's tv show around late 80's, titled "si unyil". and there's a character called "qinoy", which is a sniveler type of character -and thank god it's not my character-.

Two
since i born on the month december, she take the 'd' letter to be the first letter (just like her name, della and the 'd' comes from december, and my brother's name, andry with the 'a' comes from april). so she switched the 'q' with a 'd'
and there you go, 'dinoy'


then december 8th 1989, around 5 am. i was born, a boy. so there i given the name by the most special person in my life, my beloved sister, who born just seven years and four days before my birth, and today is her birthday. and for me, being born at eight is a gift. the symbol '8' is a standing infinite, and for me it means i have no limited possibilities, and stand out the crowd.

"love you, sis... hope this will be a good gift for your birthday"

autistneverdie