welcoming the new family

three years ago, i met her.

she was young, very young.

agile, fast, durable.

many months has passed, many things happened.

rachel, i said.

but now she won't be with me anymore,

going away, left behind.

she's not old, but not young anymore.

didn't passed her productive phase yet, but unable to work much

some problems we had, just can't be finished

we separated yesterday

but now, i'm with rachell.

her sister, much younger, much durable, much agile

hopefully there would be many memories will be made.

more and more...

autistneverdie

the day we lost our cause

hello!

there. it's the word i should be shout when i haven't write here for months.

it's months, right?

i don't even have the cause to write anymore

i don't even have the right to own anymore

just a selfish being, here sitting behind his laptop,

bought to him by his loving father, whom until now he only do disappointing him.

just a selfish being, here daydreaming about his future,

brought to him by his loving mother, whom until now he only made her worried.

where am i now?

what am i doing?

wonder what am i doing in this world now,

being a trash

shouldn't we look upon our bright future without forgetting about all the hard work?

it's just a reason, the reason of why i'm running from reality

i even forget,

that day should be the day we lost our cause.

autistneverdie

debt

i'm in debt

debt from myself

debt for myself

there were things i hoped i've done but i did not,

and there were things i did not hoped i've done but i did

doubting about finishing the debts

but maybe better to finish it one by one

:)

reviews, sop bundle, study...

autistneverdie

unit serba ada 2010-2011

selamat datang di era baru!

selamat datang di masa dimana segalanya seperti toserba, atau toko serba ada yang menyediakan semua keinginan kita. mulai dari hiburan, kebutuhan hidup, bahkan barang-barang tidak berguna sekalipun.

userba, itulah lfm. unit serba ada yang sudah hampir 50 tahun berdiri ini memiliki banyak sekali kelebihan dan sangat-sangat memenuhi kebutuhan kru-krunya, dari romantisme makan-makan, persahabatan dan calon bukan sahabat, kenikmatan duniawi, saat-saat religius, bahkan rasa desak-desakan seperti antre sembako bisa dinikmati disini.

tapi sekali lagi, seperti toserba, userba ini menggunakan metode swalayan, dimana kita sendiri yang mengambil apa yang kita inginkan atau butuhkan, dan apabila membutuhkan bantuan, orang-orang terdekat siap membantu anda.

tunggu apalagi? sudah 50 tahun kita berdiri, masihkah kita harus manja dan menunggu disuapi? kita semua tentu sudah duduk di bangku perkuliahan, setidaknya semuanya pernah merasakan sistem pendidikan indonesia peninggalan orde baru, disuapin. tidak, itu tidak swalayan. disinilah kita memulai melayani diri kita sendiri, mengetahui apa yang kita butuhkan, apa yang sebenarnya kita hanya inginkan tapi tidak berguna, agar di kasir nanti setelah keluar dari toserba tidak kemahalan harganya. syukur-syukur ada uangnya, tapi sampai sekarang rasanya belom pernah ada toserba yang boleh ngutang.

bagaimanapun juga, sebuah toserba pun butuh pembeli untuk bisa tetap hidup, dan berkembang. apakah pembelinya masyarakat sekitar, apakah pembelinya pengunjung dari luar yang lewat, toserba pun memiliki potensi besar yang sayangnya kurang diketahui bahkan oleh penduduk sekitar, hingga akhirnya potensi itupun tidak terbuka dan pemerintah daerah kerap kali menghentikan promo-promo yang dilakukan demi mencapai ramainya pembeli di toserba ini.

mungkin kita baru sekedar toserba, mungkin kita belum mencapai level hypermart dimana kita bisa memberi diskon besar-besaran, kemudahan besar-besaran. tapi semua itu bisa dicapai apabila pengunjung toserba ini semakin banyak dan semakin terkenal.

namun apakah penting untuk berlomba-lomba menjadi sebuah hypermart, dimana bukan disitulah pergelutan kita? atau sebenarnya menjadi toserba dengan memiliki cabang dimana-mana akan lebih efektif dan menguntungkan bagi klien, pemerintah maupun owner dari franchise ini, meskipun hasilnya akan lama baru bisa dipetik?

sekali lagi, semuanya terserah kita. bagaimana kita menyalurkan kebutuhan dan keinginan kita di userba yang sebenarnya berpotensi dan sudah menyediakan banyak sekali barang dan jasa untuk kita beli.

tapi ingat, telitilah sebelum membeli, karena menguntungkan bagi kedua belah pihak adalah sebaik-baiknya sebuah pertukaran.

:)

sebuah celoteh mengenai keunikan di tengah malam

autistneverdie

they were so 2009

this just come to thought, my 2010 resolution is too abnormal, even too picky and carefully thought. well, i just don't want my life to be absurd and getting more absurd. if having targets is better than having nothing, i think having targets that i will seriously taken care of is far better.

what did happen in 2009?

what's my three hundred and fifty three days behind?

what's the best part of it? what's the worst part?

here it is

lfm, blogging, my first e score experience, reiska manggala putri, brother's wedding, graduation doc on july 2009, monica, dual 20th birthday, mary and max, movie reviews...

after i think about it, let my detail of 2009 just kept sealed in my heart.

this is a year i won't forget, this is a year that i acquired very big experience on.

this year is a very lfm year. and that i think about it more, next year should be more. :)

autistneverdie

resolutionaire of twenty ten

target harus konkrit dulu

targetnya harus punya kontinuitas

motivasinya apa

planning untuk target ini gimana:

treatment yang possible kalo kondisi ini gimana itu gimana

berusaha lebih itu setelah semuanya jelas step by step

punishmentnya apa dan rewardnya apa

itu semua berdasarkan post saya sebelumnya mengenai introspeksi 2009.

2010 adalah tahun yang besar. betapa tidak?

berikut hal-hal besar untuk saya yang sudah pasti kecuali kiamat terjadi di 2010 :

umur saya menjadi 21

reiska juga

ganffest 2010

dies emas lfm itb

banyak sekali film baru yang bagus

mengulang listrik magnet dan fismat 2

wisuda itb tiga kali setahun

dan ini yang pasti terjadi kecuali terjadi perubahan besar dalam diri saya :

fungsionaris atau tidak fungsionaris

kerja praktek atau tidak kerja praktek

kermantau atau tidak kermantau

semua hal diatas termasuk dalam kejadian. untuk menciptakan sebuah target, berikanlah parameter yang diinginkan dari kejadian tersebut.

ganffest 2010 dan dies emas lfm adalah sebuah acara. parameter seperti apa yang saya butuh?

saya akan berpartisipasi dalam acara itu. oke, kemungkinan sangat kecil sekali saya tidak berpartisipasi. bahkan seharusnya membawakan solatip kertas dan membelikan air mineral ketika ganffest 2008 lalu ketika saya cakru, sudah dibilang berpartisipasi. karena itu resolusi 2010 pertama ialah menyumbangkan setidaknya satu karya untuk ganffest 2010 dan dies emas lfm itb. karya disini bukan berupa acara, tapi bentuk konkritnya. misalkan film, video, bumper, foto, doksos, atau apapun. dengan begini, mudah-mudahan pada saatnya nanti saya bisa terus memiliki semangat untuk berkarya dan bisa menularkannya ke orang-orang lain.

banyak sekali film baru yang bagus keluar di 2010. toy story 3, harry potter 7, iron man 2, alice in wonderland, dan masih banyak lagi. saya ingin menonton semuanya. dan memanfaatkan moviesneverdie.blogspot.com untuk menulis semua reviewnya. kontinuitas dalam menulis review film, terutama film yang bagus bagus adalah resolusi kedua saya.

wisuda itb! yang ingin saya lakukan adalah seperti yang pernah diminta cupris, bundel standard operational procedure versi wisuda saya. just wait and see. ini bakal memudahkan banget untuk wisuda-wisuda selanjutnya (mudah-mudahan), karena sampai sekarang gue rasa sop-sop yang paling mudah ditemukan adalah sop cupris dan angga yang pasti ada di tante dan lengkap.

saya pasti mengambil 8 sks dari tahun kedua saya untuk mengulang listrik magnet dan fismat 2. karenanya saya gamau lagi sampe tingkat 4 masih mengambil dua mata kuliah itu. semester genap 2009/2010 harus lulus fismat 2 dan listrik magnet. mungkin tahap pertama adalah dengan tidak mengambil fismat dengan pak jusak lagi. saya akan mengambil pak enjang lagi dan berusaha untuk tetap masuk kuliah dan concern akan kuliahnya. untuk listrik magnet, mudah-mudahan saya bisa lebih mengerti bareng orang lain. kebetulan tahun lalu hadi beda kelas ngambil listrik magnetnya dan sabar belom ngambil.

tahun depan saya 21, reiska juga. resolusi untuk hal-hal seperti ini sih hanya satu, semoga ketika 21 itu tercapai, saya masih bisa bilang tahun ini saya 21, reiska juga.

okay! kermantau atau tidak? kp atau tidak? hal ini bergantung pada konsultasi dengan dosen wali saya di awal semester genap 2009/2010 nanti. mudah-mudahan dengan bantuannya saya benar-benar bisa kerja praktek seismic data processing di pertamina, amin. artinya, resolusinya ialah kp di tahun 2010, atau kp di tahun 2011 karena harus kermantau di tahun 2010.

last but not least, fungsionaris atau tidak fungsionaris. tapi rasanya belum saatnya membahas hal seperti ini di bulan desember. :)

baiklah, semua diatas adalah hal-hal non-pribadi yang saya inginkan untuk terjadi. tapi tentu saja, ego saya tidak ingin terkalahkan bukan?

berat saya mencapai 8x lagi di tahun 2009 ini. seharusnya di kuartal kedua 2010 sudah bisa kembali stabil di 7x dengan 1<5> gak baik terlalu gendut. seperti juga terlalu kurus gak baik.

dengan adanya semester pendek berupa kermantau atau kp yang mudah-mudahan bisa sekaligus menaikkan ipk, dan mudah-mudahan niat untuk melaksanakan kuliah dengan baik, maka ipk saya seharusnya bisa dinaikkan menjadi diatas 2,5. atau bila ternyata untuk semester ini sudah 2,5, maka bisa jadi diatas 2,6.

mari di rekapitulasi!

the 2010 resolute!

1. menyumbangkan setidaknya satu karya untuk ganffest 2010 dan dies emas lfm itb

2. kontinuitas dalam menulis review film, terutama film yang bagus bagus

3. bundel standard operational procedure versi wisuda saya

4. semester genap 2009/2010 harus lulus fismat 2 dan listrik magnet

5. ketika 21 itu tercapai, saya masih bisa bilang "tahun ini saya 21, reiska juga."

6. kp di tahun 2010, atau kp di tahun 2011 karena harus kermantau di tahun 2010.

7. the zolos!

8. 7x di kuartal kedua 2010!

9. exceed 2,5x!

okay, mungkin segitu saja untuk resolusi tahun 2010 nanti.

ada baiknya resolusi ini dibuat jadi sticky di sisi blog ini supaya saya bisa melihatnya lagi setiap saat dan teringatkan.

doakan saja.

autistneverdie

two thousand and nine

oke, ini dia. sebelum saya flashback ke 361 hari sebelum hari ini di 2009, mari diingat lagi mengenai resolusi tahun 2008 dan hasilnya, serta resolusi tahun 2009.

dan ini hasilnya :

1. 90% attending classes with gpa better than 2,67 - failed

even worse, less than 70% and gpa is 2,02. i was a failure. i hope this is the worst i can do

2. pray more, do less - failed

i do more, pray less. shit

3. bye bye porn - succeed

thank you for all these seven years. (hopefully) i'll forget about you!

4. more movies, at least 5 of them! - failed

one. just one.

5. soft lens - failed

well, i didn't really put any will on this.

6. having her as my girlfriend - succeed

reiska manggala putri. you're the best!

7. come home more often - failed

okay this was my fault for doing more.

so, only two of seven has succeeded.

and that meant : i'm getting more worse by the day.

yah, segala sesuatu ada yang terjadi, dan ada yang tidak terjadi. gak berarti yang sukses adalah yang benar-benar dilakukan dan ga berarti yang gak sukses adalah kesalahan gue sendiri atau bukan.

introspeksi lagi!

resolusi 2009 adalah salah satu resolusi yang memang tidak segitu dipikirkannya tetapi semuanya cukup mudah bila usahanya memang getol, kecuali untuk nomer satu.

yang kurang berarti perencanaan dan usaha untuk menggapainya.

gimana caranya sampai usahanya bisa kurang? gimana caranya bisa sampai kurang terencana?

motivasinya mungkin?

tentu saja motivasi gue untuk menggapai nomer 6 diatas sangat besar, karena itu bisa menjadi motivasi untuk yang lainnya. tapi sekali lagi, less planned. jadi setelah udah dapat motivator diatas, gue bingung menjadikannya motivasi untuk yang mana.

reward and punishment. mungkin sistem ini perlu diterapkan. gue bukan orang yang suka memberi diri gue reward akan sesuatu, begitu juga sebaliknya tentang punishment. seperti orang bilang, life goes as it is. tapi jika dan hanya jika reward dan punishment diatas bisa membuat diri ini jadi lebih baik, kenapa nggak?

continuity. goal-goal dan resolusi seperti nomer 5, jelas hanya spontanitas semata. mungkin lebih baik seperti nomer 6, 1, dan 3 yang sangat baik untuk kesehatan. ada makna dan gunanya dibalik resolusi itu. mungkin dengan gue mencapainya, gue bisa menjadi orang yang lebih baik dengan kriteria yang ada dalam resolusi tersebut.

oke, sejauh ini nyaris jelas. targetnya belum ditentukan. bobot dan learning rate-nya (oke gue akui sebenarnya hanya ini dari yang segelintir gue ngerti dari kuliah-kuliah yang gue jalani) juga masih ngawang. harus jelas step by step nya harus apa, seperti solusi dari konklusi yang tadi, jadi lebih well planned dan organized. harus juga ditetapkan treatment seperti apa yang harus dilakukan apabila rencana-rencananya cocok atau tidak cocok.

terencana

berusaha lebih

bermotivasi jelas

sistem reward and punishment

kontinuitas

target yang konkrit

treatment yang efektif

mungkin ini yang harus gue pahami benar-benar dalam tiga hari terakhir di 2009 ini. untuk 2010 yang jauh lebih baik, karena di 2010 banyak sekali sesuatu yang menunggu gue, ataupun gue tunggu-tunggu.

beberapa menit untuk memutuskan tiga hari untuk menyusun kedepan.

sekarang saatnya melihat kebelakang untuk memberikan gambaran mengenai "kedepan" yang akan disusun.

autistneverdie

seven sins

there's seven sins, one stronger for each people.

they are

lust

gluttony

greed

sloth

wrath

envy

pride

up until now, i only caught myself onto having pride

which is the main source of the other six sins

i'm having envy as my power to learn

envying for knowledge the others have

the feeling's wrath for no one

but myself, angered

sloth, the weakest point

best of all, worst of all

having greed with no grid

explicit reason behind my mind

gluttony for the food

feast, inside my body, healthy

the last is the lust for something forbidden

the forbidden fruit, and i haven't touch it

i have the pride to envy

to made myself change.

is these sins?

only God, will know.

autistneverdie

dengarkan sebuah cerita

aku memang bukan pencerita yang baik

selalu gagal dalam merangkai kata dan membuatmu mengerti

tidak fasih dalam membuat kontinuitas dalam lisan

aku bukan penyampai yang handal

yang terkadang membuat orang hanya bingung dan berpikir

karenanya hanya pendasaran yang dapat kulakukan

tidak lebih

tapi aku pendengar yang baik

jika saja kau mau bercerita

autistneverdie

capitalism

apapun yang terjadi, takkan pernah ada sebuah surat tanpa huruf kapital

seperti juga sebuah kehidupan dengan perbedaan ketinggian dan besar huruf juga tantangan untuk menulisnya

"goresan sejarah, sepertinya. tanpa dipikirkan lambat laun akan tetap ada"

autistneverdie

800 x 600

"800 x 600 is the small resolution that we still use nowadays. it fit on the old CRT and did not look so bad in LCD"

what does it mean? just i don't want something that too "unreachable" this year and not too easy enough to cough.

here we goes, 2009 resolution 800 x 600 :

1. 90% attending classes and better than 2,67- because it's already bye bye 3,5 and 2,67 is my highest, and by that i mean i enter the class myself and understand the subject

2. pray more, do less - too much works made me forgot to pray somehow, maybe that's why i never did a perfect one

3. bye bye porn - want to stop this as soon as possible, haha

4. more movies! - there will be at least five movies of "copyright autistneverdie" on 2009

5. soft lens - i just want to, wonder how it would feel like

6. having her as my girlfriend - if i could, life partner. and by the way, who is this"her"?

7. come home more often - i always get this workaholic session overboard, so i hope i could just rest more, even not at my home

seven, maybe that's enough...

hope that this resolution fits for me!

happy new year 2009!

autistneverdie

two thousand and eight

what do you think of 2008, incoming to it's end?

if i must say,

"two thousand and eight is a year about starting everything i haven't. otherwise, it's fake"

resolutions are things everyone having at the start of every year, but as always, not every single resolutions are granted and achieved.

so, what was your resolutions for 2008?

here's my resolutions for 2008, and a slight review for why this and why that:

1. gpa over 3.25 - failed

that time i still don't know what my final scores yet, actually i still believe that i could get a 3, even if it not 3.25. in fact, i only get 2.39 overall

2. get an A for videography's final project - succeed

thanks to the best director ever, ronaldiaz hartantyo. but this ends with him being fired from being a crew of lfm. sad story of the year - that month -

3. physics - succeed

i just like physics and hate math, no matter how i could do it better on math and sucks on physics.

4. have camcorder - failed

somehow me and my father just talked about it these last months of 2008, maybe i'll get it on 2009, but still it's not acquired yet on 2008

5. good and longing relationship with her - failed

we broke up, thanks - and i shouldn't say sorry, should i?

6. holiday, faraway, and being far from technology - succeed

thanks to lfm's photocamp, i was being far from technology. sadly we still be able to bring gadget there, but that was fun!

7. not being thinner than [78 - 5] kgs - succeed

well it's something someone wants me to, so i won't be so thin that looks like a drugs user

okay, maybe that's all, for the resolutions of 2008, what has succeeded and what has failed.
succeeded 4/7 , huh? not bad, but i want to have 1/1 for every single resolutions.
hope i could

and what about the resolutions for 2009?

resolutions for 2009?
there's still 3 days left, for sure i will think about it.

"else than having her as my girlfriend - if could, life partner -"

autistneverdie

ongoing jakarta once again

two point five hours on the journey to jakarta
three hours online
seven hours sleep
two hours online
two hours play indoor football
three hours of rest
two hours on the journey to my grandpa's house
twenty hours of boring - including online, sleep, watches serial tv
one hour going to bulungan
one hour of waiting for friends, wanting to know who the hell the cuties are
one hour of waiting people
one hour of negotiating
one hour online

what am i doing here?
that doesn't even fun and never in a cool situation,
i mean, jakarta is always hot!

autistneverdie

being december, being infinite

"dinoy alamsyah"

people just keep asking and asking, where does the "dinoy" term comes from?
here we go

it's 1989, near december 8th. mother already had the feeling onto giving birth to me. but since i'm the third child, and there's already my elder sister and brother -means my mom already gave names to her children, boy and girl, and my father just gave his last name, alamsjah to all of his children-, she just confused what name to give to me.

here comes the hero - my elder sister -, she wants to give a name, and then my mother gave the rights of naming me to her.

days before 8th, she already have the name, and slip it under the glass on the table in the family room. it's "dinoy" if a boy is born, and another different strange name if it's a girl(she actually forgot about the girl's name, haha)

why dinoy?

One
it comes from some indonesian's tv show around late 80's, titled "si unyil". and there's a character called "qinoy", which is a sniveler type of character -and thank god it's not my character-.

Two
since i born on the month december, she take the 'd' letter to be the first letter (just like her name, della and the 'd' comes from december, and my brother's name, andry with the 'a' comes from april). so she switched the 'q' with a 'd'
and there you go, 'dinoy'


then december 8th 1989, around 5 am. i was born, a boy. so there i given the name by the most special person in my life, my beloved sister, who born just seven years and four days before my birth, and today is her birthday. and for me, being born at eight is a gift. the symbol '8' is a standing infinite, and for me it means i have no limited possibilities, and stand out the crowd.

"love you, sis... hope this will be a good gift for your birthday"

autistneverdie

organizer

it's been weeks since i have the feeling i'm needing that thing, organizer.
and meanwhile works had just going under optimum expectation where people just didn't notice it. or maybe they did but just keep silent about it.

but when i think of it later -these past few days- i don't think that it would help me much more. maybe it will, for some first days, but after a while, i'll be taking it as something i don't need and having it just sided, not as thing to make me remember anymore.

to think of it, i just need something to remind me to keep on those organizer every time i could.
just because of that, it couldn't be something that even less forgetful but i won't take a catch on it.
it has to be something that, could made me believe in it and do as it say...

i was having it, just few months ago, and now i just feel the lost of having it -not that i'm regretting it-.
i'll just count the days, till the one who will be reminding me onto doing those things came into my life, as my usual partner in doing things together.

"things just won't do as you wish, but you can wish as things happened"

autistneverdie

turn back

everybody has their time of turning back
cause
everything has to be change and every little thing is meant to be something in this world

every little thing we do
every little thing we did

it's just every little something that won't matters to our life yet affects it so much
and it's not as big as love or study or work or whatever but something affects them all

and everyone just doesn't realize it yet
no one just realize it yet
but no one just realize it
yet i don't want to know why is it
don't want to know why is it

turn back

turn back
turn back, my friend
look back to me and everyone you left
around

turn back and see what we can do
together we can do
together but we won't do it
if you want to be alone
if you want to be alone
if you want to never be free

never be free to yourself
to ourself, to myself, to themself
to everyone in this life of us
to every little things matter to us
also every single matters that affects our life till the end


turn back, baby
things just happened

autistneverdie

a day of travel

celebrating my mom's birthday today on the morning,
i went to jakarta yesterday afternoon and get there on evening

05.25 the morning comes true with a statement
"i haven't finished my editing project, but i have many things to do"

08.13 awaking
so i woke up early to start editing, but somehow i fallen asleep again for an hour

11.25 the editing is finished - almost -
and i went to campus, previewing things and print my mom's birthday card
my editing preview has somethings to reedit and then i went to TA to print the card

12.10 doing reediting and previewing until 2 pm
calling travel agency, xtrans...
hmm...
"hello, with **** here, can i help you?"
"is there any departure today to pondok indah?"
"it was, but already depart just five minutes ago"
"... (damn you)"
"but you can try the departure from cihampelas, sir?"
"what's the number?"
"*****"
"okay, thanks..."
so i called it, but it was busy for half an hour
then i called baraya travel
"hello, baraya travel with *** can i help you?"
"is there still any departure today?"
"already full booked till tonight sir, for every departure to and from everywhere"
"(freaked out) what? okay, maybe i'll just be on waiting list"
damn it...
calling xtrans on cihampelas
"helloblabla"
"yes, still departure to pi?"
"yeah, on five."
"i'll book one, how much it cost?"
"seventy thousand, sir"
"(full shocked) urh... okay... thanks"
shit, 70grand? cititrans is better with the same price
calling cititrans
"hello cititrans good afternoon."
"is there still any unbooked departure for today?'
"no sir, we are already full booked"
"oh, okay then... thanks"
damned

3.35 i was fallen asleep and then going onto baraya travel with panjie
the damn one was i don't know the place, and it's really on the inside of building that it's hard to see from outside...

3.55 good thing, i still can get one chair...
but the strange one that it's still four chair unoccupied..
haha

4.20 it's raining hard on the toll road

6.35 arrived at baraya pondok indah,
i was so hungry, then eating at pi mcd
after eating i flew away to pondok indah mall

7.05 arrived on pim, then went straight to gramedia to find some book for my mother
still confused what to buy, then after some friends saying, i bought a book about mother's pray


9.00 come down and bought ice cream cone from aw
went around somewhere and found a promo stand about figures
found some figures about doraemon!
and so many doraemon but no nobita!
i found one, but only the small one
well, in the end i buy nothing there and went home

9.40 arrived at home, and mom's already slept
so i drink some water to clean the ice cream flavor inside my mouth
and then my dad talked about "can't move the phone book to new handphone"
then i shocked till drop when i saw his blackberry bold... i want one too...

10.30 preparing the gift for mom, and place it on the table in the room

5.20 next morning, or today
mom came to my room and saying thanks
i felt happy, haha

6.30
already have to go back to bandung, so i woke up early and preparing for everything
at last, i'm having breakfast for the first time in the last 2 months, haha

7.50
aah i have to go back...arriving at baraya and departing

9.10 fallen asleep at first, but can't get a good one because i'm worrying
about my midtest at 11

10.00 freaked out, waiting to arrive at campus before 11...

10.30 arrived at campus! yeah...

11.00 statistical data analyzing mid test... cleared with some good premonition! haha

well
don't know, just want to write a story
somehow doing it is far more better than just talking about it

autistneverdie