another thought

Iris - Goo Goo Dolls

And I'd give up forever to touch you
Cause I know that you feel me somehow
You're the closest to heaven that I'll ever be
And I don't want to go home right now

And all I can taste is this moment
And all I can breathe is your life
Cause sooner or later it's over
I just don't want to miss you tonight

 I don't want the world to see me
 Cause I don't think that they'd understand
 When everything's made to be broken
 I just want you to know who I am

And you can't fight the tears that ain't coming
Or the moment of truth in your lies
When everything seems like the movies
Yeah you bleed just to know your alive

 And I don't want the world to see me
 Cause I don't think that they'd understand
 When everything's made to be broken
 I just want you to know who I am

 I don't want the world to see me
 Cause I don't think that they'd understand
 When everything's made to be broken
 I just want you to know who I am

I just want you to know who I am
I just want you to know who I am
I just want you to know who I am
I just want you to know who I am

autistneverdie

in minus one condition

feeling

feeling onto wanting

feeling onto wanting something

feeling onto wanting something i should

feeling onto wanting something i should not want

feeling onto wanting something i should not want because it is wanting someone else

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as i fall

as i am just stupid, not smart
as i am just forgetful, not remembering
as i am just human, not machine

"as i am just falling in love with you, not knowing what to do"

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hesitating

depressing
when knowing what we shouldn't know
whenever it's growing inside us as a habit, finding out about something we shouldn't

and pretending not to know is not better than knowing nothing

knowing and regretting it is not the right choice
but it always happened

while everything's confusing
when i hesitate

"maybe i should not ask, or maybe i should not hesitate. but whichever it was, i don't know why i am so sure i'll regret it"

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disappointed

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"even i could feel disappointed with my life, what's wrong with me?"

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the right time

if you read a book or watching movies, there will be always a climax scene, or climax scenes.
and the plot is always like that and usually, the good movie rests with the climax not in the end.

such as finding the right time on asking someone out, and not letting the climax reached in the moment of asking, so the time after that would be something we could not enjoy as something trivial, but usually well planned and boring.

will i found the right time?

will i get it as the climax?

will i set the climax in the middle, or it would be the end itself?

"wondering, while finding the right time to do it"

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hello january, hello final exam

3 days left onto final exam and i haven't study anything -as usual-

wonder how will i survive this year

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