800 x 600

"800 x 600 is the small resolution that we still use nowadays. it fit on the old CRT and did not look so bad in LCD"

what does it mean? just i don't want something that too "unreachable" this year and not too easy enough to cough.

here we goes, 2009 resolution 800 x 600 :

1. 90% attending classes and better than 2,67- because it's already bye bye 3,5 and 2,67 is my highest, and by that i mean i enter the class myself and understand the subject

2. pray more, do less - too much works made me forgot to pray somehow, maybe that's why i never did a perfect one

3. bye bye porn - want to stop this as soon as possible, haha

4. more movies! - there will be at least five movies of "copyright autistneverdie" on 2009

5. soft lens - i just want to, wonder how it would feel like

6. having her as my girlfriend - if i could, life partner. and by the way, who is this"her"?

7. come home more often - i always get this workaholic session overboard, so i hope i could just rest more, even not at my home

seven, maybe that's enough...

hope that this resolution fits for me!

happy new year 2009!

autistneverdie

two thousand and eight

what do you think of 2008, incoming to it's end?

if i must say,

"two thousand and eight is a year about starting everything i haven't. otherwise, it's fake"

resolutions are things everyone having at the start of every year, but as always, not every single resolutions are granted and achieved.

so, what was your resolutions for 2008?

here's my resolutions for 2008, and a slight review for why this and why that:

1. gpa over 3.25 - failed

that time i still don't know what my final scores yet, actually i still believe that i could get a 3, even if it not 3.25. in fact, i only get 2.39 overall

2. get an A for videography's final project - succeed

thanks to the best director ever, ronaldiaz hartantyo. but this ends with him being fired from being a crew of lfm. sad story of the year - that month -

3. physics - succeed

i just like physics and hate math, no matter how i could do it better on math and sucks on physics.

4. have camcorder - failed

somehow me and my father just talked about it these last months of 2008, maybe i'll get it on 2009, but still it's not acquired yet on 2008

5. good and longing relationship with her - failed

we broke up, thanks - and i shouldn't say sorry, should i?

6. holiday, faraway, and being far from technology - succeed

thanks to lfm's photocamp, i was being far from technology. sadly we still be able to bring gadget there, but that was fun!

7. not being thinner than [78 - 5] kgs - succeed

well it's something someone wants me to, so i won't be so thin that looks like a drugs user

okay, maybe that's all, for the resolutions of 2008, what has succeeded and what has failed.
succeeded 4/7 , huh? not bad, but i want to have 1/1 for every single resolutions.
hope i could

and what about the resolutions for 2009?

resolutions for 2009?
there's still 3 days left, for sure i will think about it.

"else than having her as my girlfriend - if could, life partner -"

autistneverdie

ongoing jakarta once again

two point five hours on the journey to jakarta
three hours online
seven hours sleep
two hours online
two hours play indoor football
three hours of rest
two hours on the journey to my grandpa's house
twenty hours of boring - including online, sleep, watches serial tv
one hour going to bulungan
one hour of waiting for friends, wanting to know who the hell the cuties are
one hour of waiting people
one hour of negotiating
one hour online

what am i doing here?
that doesn't even fun and never in a cool situation,
i mean, jakarta is always hot!

autistneverdie

your thanks

"and it's really nothing, just a 'thank you' from me"

so it's not really a gift for me?

-laughing- no matter what the reason is, now i feel thankful for it

it's still, no matter what, the most promising gift i'd ever have,

"thanks"

for the memorable december 7th and 8th i fight for

autistneverdie

merry?

"it's midnight on twenty five of december, what people said would be christmas eve. i'm not into it, and really, i'm not celebrating it"

we come to one conclusion, no matter where we are, we still people with different religions and race, and somehow, it matters in some situation.

in my religion, i should not be saying merry onto those who celebrating it, and so it with celebrating it myself. but is having something to do in the middle of those thing meant that i'm celebrating it?
i'm just having a burn and roast dinner with my friends, nothing in occasional and it can't mean that i'm celebrating what would happen on tomorrow

and well, from those things we knew that there is religious pact that each shall not disturb others with theirs. so that the world can ongoing with it's variations.

"but still, i can't understand why we don't made it into peace nowadays"

autistneverdie

do not know

i want to say "congrats" but somehow i feel kind of sad.
but at least now i know i can reload and increase my pace
thanks
get ready berry
hopefully you read this

autistneverdie

the butterfly

the butterfly has dead
it never leaves me

thanks

autistneverdie

when i look back

when we stop from our usual routine
we just tend to think about things we don't think about in usual terms

this time, i look back onto my past,
part of my memories from my nineteen plus five days years of living

year by year, in the same day every years

december 8th

it's been 19 time i've experiencing those days,
some alone
some with family
few together with friend
fewer together with girlfriend
and once in a lifetime with all my big family in a day where people having holiday together
and for me, this one is the best and the worst
still, all of them are memorable

wondering how many december 8th i'll get past later
because when i look back, every december 8th just get to be different, somehow...

"thanks to everyone for every memorable december 8th i've experienced. life couldn't be better without you guys in it"
"and the last december 8th was just, so meaningful to me. i've never experienced excitement of giving and accepting since many years ago. thanks"

autistneverdie

being december, being infinite

"dinoy alamsyah"

people just keep asking and asking, where does the "dinoy" term comes from?
here we go

it's 1989, near december 8th. mother already had the feeling onto giving birth to me. but since i'm the third child, and there's already my elder sister and brother -means my mom already gave names to her children, boy and girl, and my father just gave his last name, alamsjah to all of his children-, she just confused what name to give to me.

here comes the hero - my elder sister -, she wants to give a name, and then my mother gave the rights of naming me to her.

days before 8th, she already have the name, and slip it under the glass on the table in the family room. it's "dinoy" if a boy is born, and another different strange name if it's a girl(she actually forgot about the girl's name, haha)

why dinoy?

One
it comes from some indonesian's tv show around late 80's, titled "si unyil". and there's a character called "qinoy", which is a sniveler type of character -and thank god it's not my character-.

Two
since i born on the month december, she take the 'd' letter to be the first letter (just like her name, della and the 'd' comes from december, and my brother's name, andry with the 'a' comes from april). so she switched the 'q' with a 'd'
and there you go, 'dinoy'


then december 8th 1989, around 5 am. i was born, a boy. so there i given the name by the most special person in my life, my beloved sister, who born just seven years and four days before my birth, and today is her birthday. and for me, being born at eight is a gift. the symbol '8' is a standing infinite, and for me it means i have no limited possibilities, and stand out the crowd.

"love you, sis... hope this will be a good gift for your birthday"

autistneverdie

organizer

it's been weeks since i have the feeling i'm needing that thing, organizer.
and meanwhile works had just going under optimum expectation where people just didn't notice it. or maybe they did but just keep silent about it.

but when i think of it later -these past few days- i don't think that it would help me much more. maybe it will, for some first days, but after a while, i'll be taking it as something i don't need and having it just sided, not as thing to make me remember anymore.

to think of it, i just need something to remind me to keep on those organizer every time i could.
just because of that, it couldn't be something that even less forgetful but i won't take a catch on it.
it has to be something that, could made me believe in it and do as it say...

i was having it, just few months ago, and now i just feel the lost of having it -not that i'm regretting it-.
i'll just count the days, till the one who will be reminding me onto doing those things came into my life, as my usual partner in doing things together.

"things just won't do as you wish, but you can wish as things happened"

autistneverdie

randomness

hello world

i don't really know what to write here, so i'll just post some random things

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one hour later
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okay, i'll just skip this one, have to finish things first

autistneverdie